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I’m scared

im sorry for the vague blog post. This is a mind dump. There are times when I forget until I remember. I feel like I’m in Limbo at the moment . My plans, dreams & hopes have a question mark. I’m trying to be normal & go about my routine but I’m scared shitless. 

 All I know is that it gets overwhelming at the moment whilst I wait. There’s this metaphorical bomb. I can feel it. 

 The waiting is the hardest bit. 
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