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Letter to My Dear LJ - You are growing up!

My Dear LJ,

Honey, you are growing up.
It scares me to admit it but its true. There are signs everywhere pointing to the fact that you are no longer the chunky baby i used to sling everywhere. Last night I had to do a double take because lying next to me, you seemed longer. I thought it was your brother. My darling, your fierce demands to be independent have always been heard. Right from when I met you, you let me know that you will always march to the beat of your own drum.


Everything in my parenting toolkit was blunt and useless, I had to learn different ways of parenting you. You my rainbow baby, refused to be molly cuddled. I wanted to keep you wrapped up and safe. But you longed to explore the world in your quiet but steadfast way.  You are doing it. I'm so proud of you.

It's only preschool another voice in my head shouts. Your mother is and will always be a sentimental soul. This is the first step to you having a separate life i'm not part of.  I hope you have a blast and we'll continue our gentle dance of slowly letting go.

Love,

Mama

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  1. Thanks very nice blog!

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  2. This is beautiful and reminds me of my own kids and how my mum talks of me as a child x

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